When Mathilde Nauta became a mother to Theo, she was struck by emotions and a reality she could in no way have prepared for. The love was there from the first moment. It had actually been there long before he was in her arms. But amidst the overwhelming love, Mathilde also experienced postpartum issues, extreme sleep deprivation, powerlessness, shame, and a longing for herself, her freedom, and the life she knew before. For Mathilde, the initial period was a difficult balancing act, largely about finding herself in a completely new life – and about the urgent need to find something recognizable when her energy was completely depleted.